Fast approaching is Police Memorial Week 2021.  This year the names of the 228 (as of the date of this writing) police officers taken from us in 2020 will be added to the Law Enforcement Memorial Wall, of those we lost 127 to COVID19. Sadly, those numbers will, in all probability, increase before the end of the year.

Not added to this wall are the names of the 144 (to date) police officers that died by suicide in 2020.

In 2019 we had 147 officers killed and an additional 236 died by their own hand.  In 2018 another 185 police officers were killed in the line of duty and 177 succumbed to suicide.

I have had the misfortune of being muzzled for nearly ten years, due [...]

Some people know this about me; others do not.  I have killed a man.  This is not a confession; it is just a fact.  I have nothing to hide about it.  I am not ashamed of the fact.  I have no regrets about doing it.  I was doing my job.  At the time of your death, I was a police officer.  And, you tried your best to kill me.  I am the police officer that killed you.

I hope you were not long in your suffering, but as I am aware, during the short time I spent with you, listening to your cries of agony and for mercy, the curses you spat at me, I endured, as you bled to death.  I endured.

I hope you had a chance to reconcile with our creator before you went, and that angels [...]